Wedding. The topic that I really want to avoid. I don't want to get involve with it at all. I doesn' t have and see any good example of marriage  from anyone including my parents. Its not like I hate them, it just their act that i hate.
Last week, wedding cousin aku yang paling rapat. Aku terpaksa dan rela untuk involve sebab aku memang rapat dengan dia. Aku kenal husband dia sejak diaorg mula couple, clash skali n couple balik.
Bila makcik2 aku mula sampai, time tu aku baru nak mandi n siap2 untuk majlis nikah..
Mak Ngah : haa! Yang baju hijau(aku) tu tak lama lagi la turn dia tu!
Induk : Betul! Kamu bila lagi Iman? Kak Chik dah, lepas ni kamu lah pulak kan.
Aku : Apa orang pulak.. Iman lambaattt lagi.
Mak Ngah : Nak tunggu apa lagi?
Mak Lang : Alah iman.. X payah sorok2 lah.. Makcik2 kamu ni pun dulu sama jugak..
Aku : Orang nak habis study dulu, cari duit dulu, ada kereta rumah sendiri dulu, nak kerja dekat overseas dulu. InsyaAllah sangkut dengan mat saleh ke..
Terus terdiam makcik2 aku.. Heheh..
See! Itu baru sikit aku cerita. Yang lain2 sama jugak. Tension i...penat nak layan.
Mama n abah aku pun tak pernah sekali pun tanya aku ada boyfriend ke tak.
Tahun ni insyaAllah sepupu sebelah mama aku ada 4 orang yang bakal kahwin. Ada sorang tu sama umur dengan aku..(22)
Aku paling benci a.k.a tak suka bila ada kawan2 timbulkan isu kahwin. Semua berfantasi wedding masing2. Is it normal for our age to have wedding fantacy??
Aku rasa macam mengarut bila sampai ada yang berfantasi.
It wasn't reality, the reality about being marriage tu tak diambik kesah. Its about taking a huge risk to spend the rest of ur life with the same person.
U'll never know what will happen in next 3 years, next 6 years, next 10-20 years. Will he/she still have the same personality like the first time u fall in love? U'll never know..
I happen to hear some of my mother's friend marriage problem.
Once the husband have or has a scandal with other women, they feel like being betray. The love feeling is gone, and they just stay with their husband because of their child.
I think that is bullshit fuckin unfair.
Sacrifies urself for somone that betray u is not a good idea.
U r slowly kill urself like a cancer virus.
Dalam hati aku, "Itu lelaki yang kau pernah berjanji indah bagai2 dekat kau? So, sekarang mana pergi janji indah bagai2 tu??"
Maybe this is why i still in single mode.
p/s: -habis semua kelas kena ada kelas ganti.. Pening aku nak cari tarikh n classroom yg kosong. Lecturer2...